bright eyes

i could have used some warning
i was on that porch all morning
smoking cigarettes and sinking deeper into doubt
is it possible for two people to need the same thing?

it's just the lines, they get so blurry
between what was once and now required
and i don't know on which side his heart falls
but i know where mine is buried
and it's so far from any wanting

i'll just come right out and say
that i think that i deserve her
more than anyone deserves anything
maybe i am selfish, but there is no way to share this

i’m sure that there are reasons for everything that happens
and absence leads to adoration, yeah it’s nobody’s fault
but now there is no way to change this
so i just photographed and framed it
and it’s hanging in a hallway
that we have no right to walk back down

i just want this shit to end
and i want a place to hang out
where record players play out
and there’s a thousand movies rented
for a thousand nights with her